GM Bday is coming soon! WEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I'm SO DEAD!

ive got lots of assignments needs to be done by next week plus with the upcoming buddhist camp i don't think i can make it. Urghhh! So much stress in the atmosphere, i rarely can breathe! i rarely know the word 'sleep', my daily drink is coffee.... urghh...what a life...

a friend of mine got a job in a advertising firm. she has no working experience or other advertising knowledge whatsoever. IM JEALOUS! and dissapointed at the same time with the law in malaysia! why cant we, internationals work here? why cant u just look at australia, im not gonna talk bout your stupid discrimination on the locals which seriously BULL! tsk! 

Enough whining. me got tons of assignments to do!

Mood: Panic

the semester will end soon in the next couple of weeks, been busy trying to submit all the assignments and other project. somewhat i need to manage to get it all done before 6th of june. need to go to the youth camp.

Last week, a friend told there's this girl that i knew, got a crush on me. my god! another one? seriously, tsk... i shouldn't be too nice with girls next time. it's not my fault to act friendly and try to be nice with everyone, but if all the venus ou

t there think that im spreading the wrong aura, im sorry, this needs to be stop. it's all about ethics, even though im not wrong, undirectly, I hurt the girl's feeling which is totally not my fault coz i don even kno whats happenning. it might get worse, but i don think it'll b such dramatic as those romance consumerist film which normally ended with the girl kill herself bla bla bla. seriously, why all the stupid little girls out there so immature, if people don't like you then move on man. don't get jealous with other girls and start gossiping other people. 

last weekend, met bimbos on the street. blardy hate it! so lala, so retarded, weird accent, ugly hair, big shoes, what are you? Ronald Mcdonald? I cant stand those lala or faggot or stupid retarded harazuku in sungei wang. please go to ur cl

oset and check urself before u go out! u r not some effing kids whom needs their mom all the time for god's sake!

The picture above is the screw that WAS planted inside my gum! it HURTS A LOT! at least for the first 2 weeks! Last week they decided to plug it out because they think the screw was still loose. i shouldnt agree with them at the first place. now there a big hole in my mouth...SHIT!

I heart Agyness Deyn!

Oh my lovely Agy!!! If only there's a girl like her here

P.s Don't send stuff to my Mac account... already expired!

"Jakarta, Indonesia — The capital city of Indonesia has already experienced serious flooding last year, which many believe was a direct result of the climate change affecting the world. With more than twenty million people living in its metropolitan area, Jakarta is a city that has a lot to lose if the global warming issue continues unabated." CitizenSugar, 20 cities global warming might melt off map, 2008.

Such a shame! Al Gore please safe and educate the country. First, screw the dominant coalition! 

Guy Sebastian RAWKS again!!!!!!

Guy Sebastian - Taller Stronger Better

I've met the darkness 

Been held by the night 

Lonely was there in my arms 

I've been with broken 

I've stared in her eyes 

Emptiness left me this scar 

But I heard your voice, Calling me out of the cold 

[CHORUS:]

And now I can live again 

I have been chosen to run with the wind 

I can go higher

I know I will soar 

I'm taller, I'm stronger, I'm better than before 

I've walked through fire

So I could become 

All that you said I could be 

And now my breath has a reason 

My sky has a sun 

Cos in you I've found all that I need 

Your touched revived me, It was your love that opened my eyes 

[CHORUS]

I broke through the rain 

Stood through the storm 

Now I know I'll remain 

I can do the impossible 

I can reach the unreachable 

It's my time 

I will rise 

And live... 

[Chorus]

OMG! I need to get this album! 

Im in starbuckz, was mad just now. some beggar refused my bread. they only want MONEY!

"Being a full-time mother is one of the highest salaried job... since the payment is pure love"

-unknown author-

Happy mommy day to the world!

Frightening Weekend

My english is so bad. i drooled at the first post and got myself a goosebumps!

Sunday mood: Panic

I'm going to present on documentary tomorrow. yet, the content is not strong enough, and the expectations from the fellow peers and lecturer is bloody high. gar....i'll just pray other course mate will do worse than me.

First post, i present you my shameless dramatic piece of crap

Mirror mirror on the wall, who's the ugliest of all? 

How old will i be when  fall?

I don't think i like who i see at all,

Where will i be when I'm twenty four?

Will i be famous in baseball?

or should i try soccer?

Mirror mirror on the wall, 

When will this be over?

Another year, another blog, another story of life. will it last? I don't know.

How to start this?

Let's flash back to three months back where everything is nothing extraordinary. The new semester started with full of hope and excitements. I still remember how my cute lecturer welcomed me back to the town saying that i'm getting more and more prosperous. first day impression? not bad? and then i saw the sun of my life again. the earth starts to grumble, if there's a sea nearby, i hope there's a tsunami to show how unstable is my heart. the sun shines through my heart, at the same time, being shy, the sun move and hang with the moon and stars. i realized, and left with silence.

a month later, as usual, with the inconsistent of class clashes, somehow i managed to find excuse to see the cute lecturer again. i don't know why, it seems fun just to talk to her. i cant really find a cool geek like me to talk too. some even thinks i'm too cold for a joke. doesn't matter. i'm not famous. 

blue tuesday, i realized another miracle happened, which mostly ended with a mood-less vain in the heart. the sun always shine when i help my uber cool lecturer to get equipments to prepare for the class. normally, i wont thirst of the sunlight but hey, this is different, it's not warm, it melts you. who cares, ill still do it anyway. 

April 2008, things gone pretty shaky, the sun thinks i'm a serious threat, the global warming that will kill the earth. cant blame the sun? i'm too obvious. the next day, started with a normal routine with friends, we hang out, share informations, and there she was, the X'crush, she came to me, asking me for a favor and i said yes, i'll help. sounds weird? trust me, it was. day by day, babysitting is seriously a routine in the house. the xcrush however, decided to go overseas to widen herself in the industry which i really really jealous about. people don't just signed with a million dollar contract every day right?

end of april 2008, i decided to propose for a more serious vision and mission in my life. under certain circumstances, there's too much complicated procedures that ive to get through and i decided it's not the time. at the time, i realized that i need to support myself in order to go what i wanted. again, always option-less when it comes to hard choices. i'll b fine. when there's a shadow, there's a light. 

March 2008, things went crazy, i went to the world war 3 against my inner will. i destroy every single enemy in my heart. went berserk and finally got a blardy job. im not happy, its just, something missing.

May 2008, i keep searching for the lost sun, hoping that it will shine me without runing this time. i need the light desperately, my legs cant support all the weights that ive been carrying in the past 2 months.im tired, i need it, the light, so badly. and yet, cant find it everywhere. a friend suggested me to find a new sun. i say, if it shines through my heart, ill take it. so far, only one sun warms my heart this year.

another shocking story is about how a mate and sister of mine decided to walk the same road as they get older. i did not believe it at the first place. thanks to the all time brats and mates who will never stop their jokes whenever i exists. it takes time for me to digest the situation. even my naked eyes told my brain it's dreamy. but, i'm happy for him and her. she, the one who always active are now more passive in a certain way. kinda miss her craziness but, people move on, we shouldn't close our door to adultness. in the other hand, the guy looks pretty normal i guess.

i seriously think i should move on too, i cant just wait for the sun to brighten me with its shallow light? at the same time all those neon bulbs stereotypes me for my honesty and words of fury. i guess the road that awaits me won't be easy, long and windy.