taken from peter cincotti's goodbye philadelphia

Just like Philadelphia

Freedom means a lot to me

In between the place I’ve been

And where I’m goin’

I can see America

Tryin’ not to show her age

Even thought the winds have changed

Keep on blowin’

And I would lay your body down and rock your tears away

But it’s much too late for now to be like yesterday

And the time is running out and we still have to say

Goodbye

Remember Philadelphia

When the world was young and warm

So in love and living for

Everything new

But I know Philadelphia

The winter wind will slowly take

Your heart and soul until it makes

Nothing of you

Flash a peace sign take a bow

Though we may not know it now

Things are never gonna be the same

Here on Seventh Avenue

I tip my old top hat to you

I hope you find somebody who

Will love you like I do

Goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye

Goodbye Philadelphia

無

　　心與心之所有者，本性空寂也。 
　　不可見，不可聞，心如幻。 
　　但眾生偏計度，故起想而受苦樂

隨樂。 不苦。 
　　無著心。 無為心。

無無無無。

Pasrah

"Pasrah dan tidak menyalahkan siapa-siapa

pasrah akan naik turun

jika ada yang mengkhianat, bersabarlah

jika ada yang menghina, bersabarlah

jika ada yang memaki, bersabarlah

jika ada yang menjebak, bersabarlah

yang sulit dijalani tetap dijalani

yang sulit dipikul tetap dipikul

segala sesuatu akan berlalu bagaimana pun jua

pasrah terhadap kematian

pasrah kepada diri sendiri"

Yi Ri Yi Xiao Yu, Lu. S.Y. 2003, Taipei, Daden Culture Co. Ltd 

thoughts

X: you have to be rich so that people will not look down at you. i told my husband the same thing everyday. 

Me: Why do you scared people look down at you? are you ashame he is more rich or you just hate the fact that he look down on you?

X:...

X:why are you so lack of selfness? if you think you make money for your pride, are you happy with the money? of coz money talks. but, what makes the difference, after you get rich, you'll look down at him. its the same thing. i'd rather live happily not rich. 

X:...

HOliday is never relaxing for me. everyday, i went to work to do some document clippings, managing, negotiating, dealing with employees....yakz.... worse than college...lol...

everything everywhere in this small town called tarakan is pretty hectic. the stupid PON KALTIM whatever event it is keep the towns busy. i'm not gonna comment on how lame were the management for the tourism aspects in this town. this town needs a great exposure, big exposure to shine towards the nation. it might be their first time to organised this kind of event. which at the end leads to the disastrous misleading on the event. 

last few days, we deal with this stupid high tourism coalition that makes most of the athletes boilt...lol... sometimes i just don't know how they think. but, i understand that cultural imperialism is something that needs time to evolve.

so far. i think i can manage..... tsk

morning post

urghh...im so tired.... its tuesday, 17 june. i wanna go to relative's house so bad. i hate staying at hostel. the food sucks, no entertainment, the weather is so hot bleblablabla. i miss yang yi....sob sob...if you cant stand me bombard you on how pity i am then close stop seeing this post...lol....

its been 10 days since i left the camp. im very thankful that i managed to go even though i got exam last time. it enlightened me so much. ive become more focus and clean. normally everyday ill conduct smoke puja in the evening to make myself clean. thanks to it now i don even care when people badmouth about me. how does it so? i dont even know myself. my inner fire wouldnt even dare to flare...wakakaka. whatever it is, my point is, if people offended you, just imagine that he or she talking to another person. it doesnt matter, he or she will be tired if you ignore them. plus, you wont feel guilty, its not you whom talk bad aite....ahahaha.... just stay pure, im very sure the one above will guide you if you believe on them:)

fuuh.....2 more days to go and im off!!! yeay